Not a Fool! It’s Still March ♥
And welcome back! I hope you are as happy to see me as I am to be back.
So why did I disappear? Last year was a rough one physically. If you or someone you know has an autoimmune condition, you know how it is. If you’re lucky and there are medications that can help you, it still takes time to find the right dosage. For me, it took all of last year to get the medications right.
But that was last year and now I can wiggle my fingers and am moving through the pain that’s no longer prohibitive. Is there still pain? Yes, and likely always will be. However, I am back to where I can do things.
What am I now going to do?
First, I have a manuscript that needs my attention. Last year when I started to feel better, I was working on the second draft only to get COVID for the second time. I honestly thought I finished the second draft. I was obviously sicker than I realized because in January, when I finally sat down with my manuscript again, I realized that there was no ending. None. Four characters and none of them have a complete character arc.
What does this mean? Well, it means I have to finish the second draft. In doing so, I’m going back to the drawing board a bit, making sure my outline is solid, creating diagrams and charts of rooms, apartments, and even fashion looks for each of the characters.
Second, I have a lot of housework to catch up on because it went undone for an entire year. I probably should have asked for more help than I did and asked for it sooner than I did. My optimism got in my way, every week, every month thinking that I would feel better “soon.” Lesson learned. If there’s a next time, and I really hope there isn’t, I’ll reach out and ask for help sooner rather than letting things get so bad.
What does this mean? I have weeks and months of clutter, dust, and such to deal with and it’s overwhelming. My dear friend and I are committing to small, focused cleaning, choosing three different tasks or spaces and getting something done. I’m already seeing a little improvement and feeling less overwhelmed by it all.
Last but not least, I will get back to my hobbies, specifically cross-stitching. I have a large project that I started for my mother and stopped because Holly at one of the floss cards. These floss cards, for those who don’t know, match the various colors to specific symbols in the cross-stitch chart. I reached out to the company that makes the kit, and they sent me a photograph of the three cards. What I needed were the floss color numbers and what symbol went with which color. I even sent them a photo of the chewed up floss card so they wouldn’t think I was trying to steal from them.
What does this mean? I’m going to do what I can do with what I have and finish this project. Not to be morbid but I don’t have forever to finish this, not if I want to give it to my mother. Humans are finite and my procrastinating is infinite, apparently. I’ll carve out time out of my day to do some work, making sure to drink plenty of water which will force me to get up and move periodically.
Anyway, it’s springtime, a perfect time for renewal. And my birthday is approaching, a perfect time for starting anew. Which is why I am here, back to it, feeling better overall and ready to get back to work on the things that matter.
